Well... I was disappointed not to have the ride out with instructor last week as you know,

but, instead, I went yesterday from 5pm - 7pm.

Again I rode like a muppet to begin with

(for the first time EVER I flippin had a 'balance fault' at a zebra crossing which I have stopped at a bazillion times before!!

) but as the time passed it was better

. I was out with a chap who was doing his CBT ride - his first time on the road on a bike and he was brilliant!

Such confidence! (He was 17 and hardly a wobble or foot down!) I was embarassed at how badly I seemed to ride in comparison...

instructor told me it was all down to confidence.
In the end things weren't too bad I guess.. I mean, I
was nervous as this was the first time out since you-know-what happened and to be honest, I was very nervous that he would take me on what has now become affectionately termed 'Jennie's bend'... but he didn't, and I was glad. I need to ride it soon though. Then it will be on my terms and at my pace... 'firsts' are always the toughest I think....
We rode all over the place, it was good.

I relaxed a bit after a while and felt better about it until we did u-turns again!

Well.. there I was, up the kerb!! Man oh man!!

I have done them before on the bigger bike and been ok!! I need to practice.. so.. I'm going to suss out a quiet road somewhere that is perhaps a tad narrower than standard so that if I can crack it there then doing it anywhere wider will be much easier. I also need to practice hill starts and emergency stops. He told me that it is just basically the set pieces I need to focus on and my lifesavers!
He (instructor) did say that I am riding far more confidently than before and he's sure I will be fine. So I was encouraged by that.. I know I could have ridden better though.. when I go out next with him I'm going to not rush to get ready, I'm going to give myself plenty of time so that I'm not in a flap!! Plus I think I might think of a song or something to sing as I ride... try and relax myself a bit more.. when I go to the dentist I sing hymns in my head whilst he prods and pokes and (if necessary) drills and fills! That seems to work well then.. so ... perhaps it will help....
It's been an incredibly draining and horrendously stressful couple of days in the Shellshine household and I am utterly shattered so decided not to take the lovely bike out this afternoon (despite the rare appearance of some sunshine!!)... sleep is the order of the day before the next diet client shows up. Hopefully tomorrow will be nicer weather and I can tootle off somewhere in the Northants / Beds / Leics countryside after work for a breath of fresh air and some quality practice.
Can't believe that by this time next month it will all be over with and I will either be celebrating or practising anew!!

(Celebrating gets my vote!!!!)
